Too many Things to be told till its Speechless

V'day and memories from de past

2012-02-14T02:00:00.000-08:00

moving to smaller routes

field that was once ours

road with fresh air

road surrounded by green trees

a small paddy field
its funny how some memories from the past are forgotten one by one... and one day when we grow older, we just wished that time would pass slower or that we could turn back time to live through those pretty moments whether its ups or downs... That moment when we did stupid things while we were still young and still maybe until now dont have a clue on why that happened. things like BALANCING the SWTICH for lights or imagining things that isn't really in front of us.. That moment when we go out and hang out with our neighbours but not to the mall but just in front of our houses playing badminton or walking through paddy fields and fell getting a scratch here n there... That moment where we meet each other every week just to play BARBIE DOLLS or POKEMON/DIGIMON together or acting like we were teachers and sooner going tuitions together.. not forgetting all those scoldings as well.. haha.. now everythings changed and we no longer even talk to each other. everyone went their separate ways .. Now walking distance friends could be strangers... what generation is it now? children have ipods and ipads for them to touch on.. well, perhaps parents think that playing outside would be dangerous due to the increasing crime rate. But giving children those fancy gadgets would certainly spoil them. they should be taught from young that those things must be earned. Rui Y, did u forget everything we went through? hopefully u didnt .. cz when we chat not long ago, i felt like its been years. missed talking to you =)

14/2/12
its Valentine's Day !! so i woke up early and went cycling.. not to mention i went bowling with my mom for the first time =DD so cute right? hahaha

my normal result and my mom's first time ! woots.. not bad heh? haha maybe its in da gene =P
*btw, having 2 sleeping shifts isnt that good XP*

7 feb 2012

2012-02-09T02:06:00.000-08:00

well, i started my day like any other normal day. friends from kl came and we just went wok and pan and then to dp.. played arcade and pool.. and then they decided to go back first? so pook fetched me back .. showered and went downstairs touching muah ipad .. lol. then, my friends came ringing my door bell... i thought they wanted to visit de house so i opened the gate and the curious thing is they didnt seemed to want to come in... sam drove the car and stopped in front of my hse, opening the door... as the door slides open, i saw colourful balloons ... and in front of those balloons, a freaking cute cake =) a day to remember cz i dont recall any of this before... you all made my day... Thank you =)

9/2
you gave me a rose ... thank you was ur speech. lols... thanks thats sweet :)

my dog, dino

2012-01-31T06:15:00.001-08:00

My baby Dino !

so this evening after i had dinner i went out wanting to bring my dogs out for their evening walk and i called Dino and Joy... Joy came and Dino didnt so i looked under de car and start shouting telling my mom that Dino is missing ! Took my bicycle and went off to find him. Round and round and round, no sign of him. My parents help find as well, then i took the car, round round round, still no sign of him. I cant tell you the feeling of which u might lose ur beloved dog. heartbroken... then me and my sister came back home and just wait, wait and hoping that he'll come back home. My whole family talked to Joy asking him where is Dino. It sounds stupid but dogs understand us. Was so freaking worried for dino, duno whether he can cope outside, duno whether he fought with other dogs, duno whether ppl will catch him... and the worst is i duno whether i could see him again.. that feeling, sigh, made me feel so down... so we waited and waited... Then, we heard a cling sound, dino's chain. quickly go to the gate and there he is. Luckily he know the way back... Relieved..

cny pics

2012-01-29T05:03:00.001-08:00

since i'm kindda lazy to tell what happened, i'll let the pictures do the talkings =)

Family picture

Relatives pic

family

Gamblinggg

2nd day visiting

2nd day at night in iTango karaoke with cousins

good dad

2012-01-26T06:49:00.000-08:00

my dad asked me this question : Papa not good meh?
i answered: good ! why not good?

he's a really good dad.. give us place to stay, good food, good education, all the fancy gadgets, many others but not forgetting family love. yea, i noe i'm not the brightest or the best in sports but i really did try. maybe its not good enough. and yes some people can be unreasonable at times.. family argue over small issue, some tolerate more than others. i really think that i owe him a lot. though we're not rich, we're happy. my dad used to work away from home for many years. the only thing lacking that time was dad's love. but things changed and he's finally back in malacca .. yea, my older sis is the smartest, while me n younger sis slack a lot but then as we got older, got more mature and got things sort out. i don't ask much cz he's given so much. appreciate everything he gave me... thanks pa !
i believe that all father wants whats best for their children...

saved kittens and hangout

2012-01-26T06:00:00.001-08:00

three little kittens

after having breakfast with my family, nearby an indian temple at bkt beruang we saw 2 kittens trying to cross the road dangerously. scary i tell u.. so once we reached home, grabbed a box and off to the place. took both of them while my mom told a guy wad was happening.. then, he said he saw another one so we start searching for it. it was under a car but it climbed up the car underneath. tried carrying it down but our hands seemed to be too huge. haha. so we kept trying and trying until it came down from there and quickly carried it into the box. they were very cute and young so gt a lil blur. brought them home and let them be behind the house. made some milk for them too :)

hui xin, azian and me

we had kenny rogers for lunch =) haha.. its been so so long since we can talk like that. and yes, we talked a lotttttt.... was hoping for tracie and see teng to be there too but i guess it was nt a correct timing. oh well, there's next time.. but dont really noe when is that. hmm... i miss u guys so much =)

*I should have appreciated gym training last time, hoping one day i could meet with all my gym friends from all the states again and also my coach*
*we didnt get the chance to chat, guess gotta wait for degree to start*

random...

2012-01-15T06:35:00.000-08:00

since i was too bored and there were left over unused hersheys chocolate, i decided to try making chocolate mousse.. it took me more or less an hour to finish making it.. yea i noe i'm lifeless right now. too bored. my routine is wake up in the morning, tv, fetch my sis back from school, tv, bring my dogs out, tv, tv and online. i'm feeling more lazy as time passes by. now i noe, human can never be easily satisfied. i'm practically doing nothing, not studying nor working. gosh, how? do nothing also complain, study also complain, work also complain. need to find something to do every now and then... but what?

i've been feeling empty once again.. and i am not really sure why.
NCM, if u're reading this, I HATE U LARHHH !! NO MISS ME DE... saddening
*maybe i thought wrong. oh well, we'll see how things go*

memories : gym

2012-01-09T06:48:00.001-08:00

there they are... my leos and steel medals... i started off at 7, yea i was young and obedient i guess? haha.. so there were ups and downs in the gym. we had intense training everyday except sundays. As we got older, our training time got longer as well. Nice ei? 4 hours with no water, starting with warm ups, physical training that our coach love putting extra counts to them, stretchings that made me unable to sit on a normal cross-legged position, gymnastic jumps and acrobatics that made me have most of my joints injured. There were times where i wanted to make myself sick just so i could rest more instead of training everyday. sometimes faking injuries too but my coach will always find something for me to train on no matter what my injuries were. Have i mentioned about him scolding, shouting, a lil sort of dragging and a lot of hitting involved? It was like a young girl being in prison, seriously, how many people can stand all those at the age of 7-12? From 20 gymnast, we left 5. Our trainings were with no doubt sweat and tears. We sweat everyday, some cry everyday... Gymnastics is a dangerous sport. People look at us doing flips and say, wow i wanna learn that. Do u think it is that easy? One mistake, u can be paralyzed. We were lucky in that case. However, eventually everything that we went through in trainings paid off. All the medals were earned, not just given. Slowly, we became the top in M'sia but our lives were more than just gymnastics. One shifted to other state, one went to Taiwan to study, two went to bkt jalil for sports school and one, tracie even made it to commonwealth games. As for me, i thought i hated gymnastics, i thought i would be better off without it. I was wrong, gymnastics was in me in some ways. i wasn't the best in my team but i was in the eyes of my school. But to noe that i did my best in every competition, that's what i was proud off. To stand with medals around my neck, i knew my parents were proud. Ten years of training, was behind me already. For now, i'm just waiting for time to pass enjoying every moment of it before degree. This sport taught me a lot of things, it grew with me. Every memory that i had will not be forgotten despite all the hardships...

*i thought we would chat more*

3rd Jan

2012-01-03T06:46:00.000-08:00

time flies and its already 3rd of January 2012... this year 2012 really reminds me of the movie 2012, wondering what would happen next.. so yea during new year's eve, instead of going jonker to countdown, i spend time at home with my family.. somehow i have no urge to be sandwiched between hundreds of people.. oh well, what better way to do then family right?

as i woke up de next day, i felt lk my body is too lazy to move.. till my dad asked my family to change the sofa cushion.. we need 4 ppl just to change it and its tiring, making us sweat.. anyways, practically we didnt do anything on new year but just cleaning up a lil and spending time at home.. i feel so so lazy... being lazy is me.. lk literally =.= fine nvm..

i realized spending time with my family is better than spending time with others. i dont mind being away from home to study but home is where i grew up, learn basically a lot of things and a place where i would cherish because family love is always here =)

*i hate those people staying beside my hse! dont even think they gt learn what is being considerate =.= stop nailing ur wadever room or turning ur stereo so loud anD stop bringing ur friends here to simply park their car, increasing air pollution with the car sound wHICH is not even a car close to Ferrari, blocking people's way, and shouting together with u !!! how long have u stayed here? one year maybe? i've been here since birTH ! =.= be considerate lah, are we or are we not human living beside u ?? no brain also gt heart gua? speechless*

My sayings...

2011-12-28T05:35:00.000-08:00

Here are a few sayings that i wanna share out...

~ We learn from the second we got into this world. From de minute we crawl and then walk, run and jump. Learn and improve ...

~ When something or someone hit u down, get back up cz life is much more than that.. Obstacles are meant for us to be stronger, to be tougher in the future.

~ Respect comes from within... Think before u act or think again after u act

~ Love. Love your family. Love them before its too late.

*felt lk its been so long since we last chat*

singapore !

2011-12-24T21:09:00.000-08:00

i couldnt post many pictures cz the size are larger than i expect them to be.. so most pictures are in facebook =)

22/12
after having a couple hours of sleep, my mom woke me and my siblings up at 6 in dA moRning ! =.= fine.. nvm.. woke up and got ready so i went downstairs to wait for my sisters to slowly choose their clothes or do their hair.. somehow i wasn't that excited for Singapore. Once i stepped foot out of the house, once again, i felt lk sleeping cz u noe why? It was drizzling and cold outside.. haih.. said goodbye to my dogs and off to melaka central. said goodbye to my dad and went up de bus. Yes, i tried sleeping with the help of slow music. It worked ! I think... so yea i slept for less than an hour, woke up and tried to sleep again. Soon it was already noon, ate our lunch and headed off to de hotel called Victoria Hotel, a really small one i would say. Then, we as in me and my younger sis, went window shopping while my mom, older sis and sunny went to de casino... Walked for a couple of hours and realized we got hungry and waited for them to come by. So, we had dinner and walked and walked till it was already midnight. Got back to de hotel and slept. The thing is, i slept with my mom on a tiny single bed, both my sis slept on another and sunny slept on the lower part which is de hard part of de bed.

23/12
We woke up at about 7something and got ready for Universal Studio ! =) had to be sandwiched with other people since there are quite a number of people going Universal Studio. So yea, we took pictures and de environment there is just out of my expectations. Really... We waited for 1hour 40minutes for Transformers The Ride ! It felt so real and exciting.. good experience =) Then, we headed of for Battlestar Galactica roller coasters. At first, we went for the Cylon ride, WOAH dope i tell u, the best ride EVER ! Then we went for the Human ride, it was not as scary as Cylon but it was fun as well. haha. We headed off to Hard Rock Cafe for lunch and wow, the food, is awesome and very expensive of course... We continued walking but it rained cats and dogs so we went to the nearest foodcourt for shelther.. Sat there for almost an hour just to wait for the rain to stop. Continued walking and taking pictures and also playing the Revenge of the Mummy indoor roller coaster. That was epic ! It was like a movie plus roller coaster in the dark.. Not bad =) Went back to Bugis, wanted to have steamboat for dinner but then, it started raining when we just started steamboat, so we walked off and ate at a coffee shop nearby. Our legs were so exhausted that we were like forcing ourselves to continue walking to the hotel, showered and just slept.

24/12
Its Christmas Eve ! Woke up at about 9 and start packing our things to check out. Our plan was to visit the zoo but due to the weather, we went shopping instead. My mom bought 2 dresses and a shirt for my dad. Had lunch and continued shopping but nothing much was catchy enough. As our legs were still sore, we went back to the hotel, got our bags and went to the bus station. Its pretty obvious that Singapore is way cleaner. Even their public toilets are not as bad as ours. Anyways, we waited for the bus for almost 2 hours? since it got stuck at the kastam... Once we stepped foot into the bus, we felt like the bus just came from genting or something... Cold like ice... My sis and i gotta curl ourselves with the sweaters for 4 hours. Oh yeah, i thought i could sleep in the bus, i was a bit wrong.. turns out i still cant, i only can rest my eyes.. oh well, while people have fun counting down in Portugese Settlement or Jonker Street, i count down in the bus cz when i reached melaka central, it was already 12. Merry Christmas !! =)

*waiting for ur msg everyday*

dinner and prom

2011-12-20T08:48:00.000-08:00

as we were at nisse's bday dinner celebration we did a lot of catching ups and it felt good.. its not everyday where u can see ur highschool friends again. we talked, laughed, took pictures and also spinned table just so we can finish our food. haha. time flies and by then it was already 10pm and i headed home...

monday, 19 dec, i decided to go prom on that day itself. went shopping for a dress which is not a prom dress. haha.. so yea last minute decision, last minute dress up as well. everyone dressed up so nicely that day and i was worried about mine.. saved by the scraf =P so yea, i finally got to talk with cai jun after so many years and it was not bad.. haha.. so we ate and talked and when de music start, friends start pulling one another to the dance floor. hectic... lols.. at about 11.30, again, i gave my friends a ride back home and just doze off when i reach home..

*it was kindda nice talking to today*

Graduated =)

2011-12-15T05:26:00.000-08:00

yes i did graduate... lols.. reached college at about 8.30? got de robe and went to de room that we were suppose to go. i felt happy and yea, just very happy to see my friends again.. then, we were arranged according to our results and yea, never expected to be one of the eligible student for scholarship but other than BAF.. lol.. but somehow that happiness for 20mins really made me felt proud of myself. oh well, better than nothing right?

so yea, nothing much to be told. still got a long way to go... at least i noe my hardwork paid off, well yea most of it. life can be unfair sometimes right? and we just gotta accept and move on =)

worth it?

2011-12-11T08:01:00.000-08:00

to do something requested or to do something that u might be hesitating?

to wait everyday or to look out of de window?

to think about de future or to follow de flow?

it all started this year... when i came to college not knowing anything, not having any knowledge, not knowing anybody, don't know where to go. Just following what my parents wanted me to do.. study foundation and go for an accounting degree.. so what if my results were just okay? a lil above average there n here.. so here i m, waiting for graduation day for foundation, still don't know what de results are. i am so confused. my mind is all over de place. i kept thinking, i might not be able to cope on this subject, its tough. but at de same time, what subject aint tough? i guess for someone who cant decide on things, its better for someone else to decide for me. i just don't know and i m worried about de future. hoping that there is no regrets...

get it right - GLEE CAST

2011-12-01T20:33:00.000-08:00

What have I done

I wish I could run

Away from this ship going under

Just trying to help

Hurt everyone else

Now I feel the weight of the world is

On my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough

And all that you touch tumbles down

'Cuz my best intentions keep making a mess of things

I just want to fix it somehow

But how many times will it take

Oh how many times will it take for me

To get it right

Can I start again

With my faith shaken

'Cuz I can't go back and undo this

I just have to stay

And face my mistakes

But if I get stronger and wiser

I'll get through this

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/g/glee_cast/get_it_right.html ]

What can you do when your good isn't good enough

I just want to fix it somehow

But how many times will it take

But how many times will it take for me

To get it right

So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air

And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair

Yeah I sent out wish

Yeah I sent up a prayer

Then finally someone will see how much I care

What can you do when your good isn't good enough

And all that you touch tumbles down

Oh my best intentions keep making a mess of things

I just want to fix it somehow

But how many times will it take

Oh how many times will it take

To get it right

somehow i really felt this song

ever since i listen to it...

not a family

2011-11-23T08:06:00.000-08:00

sometimes i don't feel like a belong here...

friends are great.. well not all but most of them... should be feeling lucky =)

just that i feel empty sometimes..

like i'm an outsider, despite them treating me nice n good n stuff..

or maybe its just me thinking too much? or maybe.. i just miss home?

cousin's wedding !

2011-11-20T02:49:00.000-08:00

i went back to malacca for my cousin's wedding dinner =)

she's so pretty ... haha.. so yeah during the dinner, people were drinking quite a lot and some of them got drunk and start going on stage to dance with the singers LOL seriously ...

ate and talk and ate and talk... feeling fat already... gosh

den we went back at about 10something and continue onlining

ooh yeahh i finally got to touch my Ipad =)))

lol right? loveeeeeee it .. haha

college ain't bad

2011-11-16T07:31:00.000-08:00

i came to realized at one point, college ain't that bad lar.. well, there was some unequal stuff that my friends and i thought of. well, people are bias right? just because some made bad impression, that doesn't mean that most of us are like them. Judging a book by its cover? how unequal can people be? Treating us like we're not even here =.= i bet the results might be same like the sem 2's result. hope you would be more kind towards us.

Anyways, it rained these few days and today as well. Since amanda's car is already full, i decided to asked kai leong whether he could give me and shufang a lift home. Instead of letting us walk under the rain to his car, he drove to the main entrance of college to pick us up. Thank You =) As he drove to South Quay, he dropped us at the lobby. Once again, Thank You =) you made my day...

different people are seriously different ... depends on who =)

conclusion of assignment

2011-11-11T19:53:00.000-08:00

well after doing an assignment so called the research report.. i came up with a draft conclusion..

"Gymnastics is a really beautiful sport in the sense that you use every part of your body for it and gymnasts go over the boundaries, making histories. Just by reading all the elements of gymnastics and its apparatus, it brings back memories that made me want to share my experiences and knowledge to the younger generation. The ten years of intense training thought me a lot of things that are helpful in my life. I realized hard work is needed in order to be successful and not only that, determination and perseverance are also needed. No doubt, gymnastics is one of the sports that make one fall so many times, you could not even put a count on it. However, falling does not mean that it is the end because when you fall, you get back up and continue doing, not showing that you are someone who retreats from challenges. In gymnastics, if you fall, there will still be people supporting and cheering for you to finish what you started. That includes friends on our team, friends from different states or countries or even people we don’t know. We do not put hatred into another as the judging on the routines is done fairly most of the times. This concept still applies in our daily lives. You still have people around you to help you whenever you fail or lost hope on something. Hence, one should continue whatever thing that one started and not regret on it. Challenges in life are just things that will make someone stronger and tougher eventually. One of the important things in whatever thing that you do is the passion for it. When you love the thing that you do whether it is sports, studies or work, you will eventually think that it is passion and enthusiasm that made you go further and improve on it. Thus, I do hope that people get involved in sports and also to acknowledge more about gymnastics. You would not even realize that you have done so much meaningful and beneficial things in your life. Believe in yourself and you will make it through. Nothing is impossible. "

it did hit me when i wrote, "one should continue whatever thing that one started and not regret on it". as some of u might know, yes i'm in college for the 11th month, but i'm not studying what i like. i'm studying things that i never did study before. Accounting. Well yea i know its just pre-u but i know that it is going to be more difficult than that. My results are not that good. Just average results. Question, should i continue studying this subject? many people said, you should study what u like.. not what your parents like. But thinking of it in another way, they are just helping me and the thing is i can't really decide for myself as well. So yea, whatever it is, i'm finishing this course first and will continue thinking about it after that.

thoughts..

2011-11-02T08:52:00.000-07:00

some people just dont realize the truth of what they are doing. they assumed and think they know.. and there are some who pretend to not realize but they actually do... if the truth of what u're doing is a good thing den its okay. if its not, den it a little fake already..

busy busy busy...

2011-10-26T04:27:00.000-07:00

life here has been hectic for some reason

why must lecturers give assignments all at one time and due all around the same date?

and why of all time, no internet? gosh.. just for internet i gotta come college..

not to mention just to come college takes time.. just to go back too takes time.. geez...

frustrating enough... just hoping tht i can finish them in time..

True friends

2011-10-01T02:59:00.000-07:00

i finally know how stupid i could be... being cheated by not a lover, but a "friend".. how can you even talk to me like nothing happened? i don get you. Friendship is all fake for you? I have known you for how long, not a month or two, but almost ten months. Since semester 1 until now, semester 3... I know that you dont prefer to talk about ur relationship and all those to me. I know you dont trust me because of your past. but why? you have this thinking that, oh people are all the same, they will betray me once again if i trust them. But if u see in another perspective, we are all freaking different ! If you had trusted me, all these wouldnt have happened.

How am i suppose to talk to you as if i'm close to you? Did you know that even for that one week that i didnt talk to you or even look at you, i felt weird, like a rotten apple. I dont know whether inside was full of hatred or because i cared too much. I forgave you even if you did not apologize to me. Is friendship really rubbish to you? I never really have any big friendship problem after form 3's incident. And then i met you =.= foolish of me to think that we could have been close friends. oh yeah we were close on the outside, not in the inside.

All your attitude that you've shown me, proved that you dont want to improve or be a better person. And What the heck? i thought you were matured as well =.= I didn't know that you like taking advantage on your friends as well. One more question, how could u even sleep at night ??

True friends are friends who shares their problems with u, advise u when u're wrong, help and cheer u up when u're down, solve a problem with u, forgive u for what u've done and apologize if he or she made a mistake... Not just forgetting or ignoring the problem and act as if nothings happened

saddest thing to do..

2011-09-25T00:33:00.000-07:00

Wall Photos

‎))This is a Story...Please read this!

Hi, Mommy.

...I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few
weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise.
Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got
beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I
will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me
your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we
have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to
be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't
wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was
perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I
will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I
know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about
me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that
you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called
wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand
yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did
something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and
your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad
for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It
doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after,
and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I
do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I
don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and
you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,
and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most
beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm
happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait
and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will
make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your
hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love
you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting
funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't
know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry,
Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to
protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good
person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want
us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or
touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I
still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when
you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug
me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do
that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going
somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a
hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell
you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't
know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think
something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared,
Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love
you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It
feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They
told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you
get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something
wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why
don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want
to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care
about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say
you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and
see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I
want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did
something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.

Two more eyes that will never see.

Two more hands that will never touch.

Two more legs that will never run.

One more mouth that will never speak.

If you’re against abortion, reblog.

can i just forgive and forget ?

2011-09-21T07:22:00.000-07:00

yes indeed.

normally offenders want to be forgiven and they should be forgiven because everyone make mistakes.. but forgiving is not an easy thing to do once u get hurt. then, forgetting would be impossible. how would anyone forget painful experiences or memories right?

but wad can one do after that if one forgive a person though its very hurtful?

i'm confused... all one can do is just sit there and wait for that person to talk to one.

why must she find that person? why should she go through all the pain and still make another happy? why must she make things right? cant another do it? when she's already been through all that person's behavior and situations that arent that pleasant..

people will be sayin, aiya just forget it la.. nothing wan lar.. just a small thing only.. why make it a big hassle about it? unless u've step foot into that situation, try understanding the problem.. it hurts.

pics =))

2011-09-18T04:12:00.000-07:00

nice?

cheese cake ! =)

randomness

2011-09-18T03:59:00.000-07:00

this was when we were having lunch on saturday ...

dad : ei left 2 more satay.. celine n chrystal each take one.. finish them
Chrystal Goh and me : don wan la.. we ate so many sticks d.. let Sheryl Goh n mummy eat la..
dad : aiya nvm one lah .. just eat.. cause we can always buy here.
*chrystal n me looking at each other*
dad : ei, pork satay u noe?
*we both took de satay at de same time n smiled..*

today morning, after breakfast my parents let me drive their new hyundai tucson =DD it was awesome ! haha.. nice car.. ok so i followed mom to market and i saw crab ! so i said ma.... i wan crab ! she looked at me and said ha? u wan? i said ma... not everyday ma.. plssss... and crab for lunch =)) hehe..

came back to sunway, alone in this nice condo ... thinking of what to cook for dinner... being lazy me, i decided to cook black pepper pork with egg... proteins for dinner =))

at times i thought i know wads going on, but the thing is i'm always confused and blur.. haha

middle person much?

2011-09-16T00:43:00.000-07:00

okay, so i helped... things get better, he thanked me.

then, i helped again, things always get better...

few days ago, he texted me, asking whether she is okay or whether she came to college.. i told him i wasnt at college yet and that my class wasnt that early..

i went college n saw her.. so i asked her why she didnt reply him and making him worry and all those stuff.. she said she don wanna layan him and turned in front.. i called her again, noe wad? she show face.. despite of all attitude that u showed me for months, i've been patient but not now..

so, its better not to be the middle person of others.. because when u try to help, they either show u that they don need help or even show face to u even if u're once close with her... and after months of knowing u, i've had enough. do what u like.. i couldn't care less anymore.

new sem

2011-09-10T07:06:00.000-07:00

4th sept, went to the new condo at south quay in the morning and my younger sis went wow.. haha.. went for lunch wif family and then snowflakes =))

5th sept, got my timetable ... and ... it sucked -.- monday is de worst, 8.30-9.45 break till de next class at 3.15-4.30 =.=

got 77 for accounts and poor 75 for maths.. they were my poorest topics..

on 8th sept we had a tiny surprise for amanda, cupcakes =)

9th sept, Amanda's bday !! had a workshop from 9-3 and then went back by shuttle bus wif shu fang.. got to know her mom and her brother and helped out on the preparation for amanda's surprise bday celebration... at about 5something, friends start coming in and they all hid in the room. Amanda was really surprised. so, we ate and drank red wine and ate cake and went down for a swim. lol.. my friends i meant.. some of them. at about 10, some of them went back. a few of us start having ribena + cognac vos i tink.. lol. den we start playing cards... and continue drinking and played killer game. till about 12something or 1something, we sat down around the dinning table and had so called supper with some red faces around.. haha.. it was quite a nice celebration to have friends around giving u surprise.. i'm sure u were happy =)

close to p0k@i ...

2011-09-02T19:32:00.001-07:00

cm n me

me n cm

dino... n me =)

cm...

we went to windmill for lunch and headed off to dataran ... walk there n here... cant find the perfect flats... so we window shop instead... had Chatime and went arcade, continue to window shop after that... went home, we exercised =) ok fine we were playin around... cm cycle with my dog and i jog beside them.... we ended up in the playground yacking =)
cm den cycle my bic home *oi bring back here man* and i went home having nice pork and vegetables that my mom cooked... yum..

*gg.com i have nothing in my mind *

baking ...

2011-09-01T08:12:00.000-07:00

Wednesday, went to fetch tracie and had chicken rice ball

went back and baked =)

and then, we went for bowling at mibc

a fulling day ...

2011-09-01T07:23:00.000-07:00

monday, 29/8...

i'll let the picture do the talking...

went starbucks and den to wilson chicken rice

and then, we went to jonker for durian cendol ! =)

and after that, to portugese settlement ...

alex n me

ANNOYED

2011-08-24T06:40:00.000-07:00

lets just say i've got a new housemate and she's a B**** =.=

ok first day she comes in, saying hello n getting to noe us.. ok thts fine.. den she comes in our rooms, sit on our beds with her feet on our beds as well, talking to us about herself, wad she likes, wad she dont.. ok so i was having exam de next day and she comes in my room telling me, eh i'm going pyramid today, but no one teman me wor.. i was like, oo.. ok.. she ask, u got exam tmr? i said yes*ignoring her* den she said ok i'll not disturb u and went out.. after she bathed she came in again, eh i wear like tht can ar? i looked at her n say can.. she ask my roommate as well n my roommate said she prefers if she had another coloured shorts. den she started sayin, why this one cant? not nice meh? i tink ok wad..
pls la.. if u don want ppl's opinion, why bother asking? =.=

and u already noe i'm having exam the next day n u expect me to teman u to pyramid? =.=

ok fine nvm... today, when me n sue han was eating, u walk pass us n BURP freaking LOUDLY and said EXCUSE ME, SORRY AH .. i looked at her n giv tht =.= face.. she ask u not happy right? den i look at my food n said nola.. she said, see ur face also noe d la.. straight away i said, DEN u WAN me to say WAD? =.= u noe its rude n u do tht? wtf is wrong wif u man.. grow up la walao.. and u can tell me u're 19 ? RIGHT...

AND, u already can see so obviously the whole house dont want to talk to u, and u come talking like nobody's business? ignoring u is not enough? waiting for us to shout at u? =.=

not everything is about u, u dont just go around the house telling ppl about how few guys are in ur class n u wanna meet more guys, and how u dress and basically about urself lah..

luckily i'm shifting out man.. if not i'll sure burst n explode n u'll see F words everywhere =.=

its gonna be boredom all the way...

2011-08-21T00:28:00.000-07:00

lets see.. i've finished my exams and i think i did okay only.. so hope the results wont be that bad..

meanwhile, i'm having holiday till september 5th.. one week in sunway, another in malacca.. mon, tues and wed gotta help to take care of booth for recruitment week. gonna be so bored here since all my friends are the same intake as me. lets just see how it goes then..

2011-08-16T05:32:00.000-07:00

ninja joe =)

me n sue han

me n wilson

i went bowling on friday =)) and guess who win? think properly.. haha..

saturday i had a study day, so called la.. and i tried studyin and getting everything into my brain... went for dinner at ninja joe and walked till about 9 oni came back to college.

summary damn short right? lol.. so on sunday i woke up at 11 and went to pyramid wif shufang to get musical box for our teacher. had lunch there wif her and went back to hostel. i practically slept after that in study room cz i was really tired.. so ended up studyin a lil only.

monday, i had malaysian studies exam... woots... its oVER ! damn .. i tink can pass gua.. most probably... haha..

today, english exam and accounts exam... i was sleepy de whole day... so i tink sure gt byk wrong de gua.. damn tired .. duno why i cant sleep a night and ended up having difficulty to stay awake during exam..

gopeng, pictures =)

2011-08-07T07:40:00.001-07:00

me n mich

in the bus

teaching origami =P

peace

orang asli village

2011-08-06T06:34:00.001-07:00

the road is so narrow

nice right??
another house
posing for the camera .. aww

waving goodbye

This is our M'sian studies trip, which is to Kg Jelintuh, Gopeng, Perak. We moved at 8something and reached there about 11am. The place there was not bad. It was rather interesting for a not so kampung girl to go to this place. We pass through a road and that road is freakin narrow. only one vehicle could pass through that and it was definitely more than 300metres. A car stopped and the driver even went down to help the bus driver to see the road, so that he wouldn't hit the car or drop off road. There's definitely nice people around us still. Not just selfish and rushing people.

So we went in a small hall there n get ready all the chairs for the kids to sit. Then, our chairperson gave a speech as well as our lecturer. Well, we had no idea why our group, Group 4 is doing the major event which is folding origami. Every child sat n folded the origami. Everyone was so helpful that they all help us to teach the children. After that session ended, all the children were separated into groups, some went for games, some stayed for origami, some others stayed for culture exchange. While teaching them, we did not even realised that time was flying all along. And so, our friends helped to distribute lunch for the children while we pack up our stuff.

We headed off to Tapah and had our lunch at a house. Unexpected much? lol. There were rice, fried chicken, fried cabbage, curry and omelette. We ate and left for sunway university at about 3pm. As i tried sleeping in the darn bus, (sorry for the language) someone named Daniel took my picture and it was like zzz... i realised earlier someone was walking in front but i did not know that he took the picture. lol. i went to sit with him after that and we talked till we reach sunway.

I was rather tired since i did not have enough sleep the night before and so shufang n i waited for the rest to go back home. Meanwhile, we talked n talked n talked =) We went back to hostel soon after that. This trip was a good experience but it was kindda short. We were there for like an hour plus only. There will be more pictures SOON ! =))

ooh yeahh, i finally watched Harry Potter ! hehe... kindda out i noe but den at least i watched... sad thing is the story is done... cant wait for my first time ice skating which might be very soon =))

*i wonder whether u realised, but communication is kindda important right?

i just hope everything goes well... i'm glad that i told u stuff that not many noe. imy*

opinions

2011-08-04T08:02:00.000-07:00

i don't think that apologising sincerely on the current situation should be done through networking... don't u think so? i mean like, if you want to apologise on something that you've done, why use networking when it is more sincere if u do it face-to-face? well, unless your sorry don't mean anything lor. it just seemed quite fake and childish to me if one is to apologise through networking because anyone could just type letters n click send. i think a lot of people prefer to get apologies straight face-to-face as they can forgive that person faster. i know, like everyone say, forgive and forget, even if there isn't any apology. However, some people just type " sorry " for the sake of saying it.. some people don't mean it.

another thing is, if a person were to repeat her / his mistake again, how would that person handle it? maybe tht person would probably think,"its not my fault" or "this is my fate". i mean come on la, wake up ? not tryin to be mean here but reality is in front. and at the same time i am sayin this to myself also la at some point, cz i tend to look back a lot.. haha. anyways, just move on with life la.. don't just live now with depression when u can live life to the fullest. remember people always say, " life is short" ? =) so smile, forgive and forget

back in kl

2011-08-01T02:01:00.000-07:00

last saturday i went out wif choonming, jocelyn, michelle, weiching, shuping, jialing,michelle and garret (juz a while). ate at garden recipe and went window shopping... after a while, we stop at j.co donuts... here are some pics

mich n me

me, choonming, mich and jocelyn

weiching and shuping

and i'm finally back in kl... exams coming soon ans yet i feel so slacky =.=

some reality bites

2011-07-23T19:59:00.001-07:00

for someone that u look up to or admire since young, that person might not look as good as they look like ... some might tink, omg she or he is so freakin good in something but once u get to noe that person well enough, for eg, stayin with that person for a while, dark side come along too. And maybe u thought aiya maybe for a while only but in reality it will get worse unless u do something about it.. well i gotta wish someone close to me good luck to stand for a couple more months with someone which i looked up to before... and at the same time, if u love that person or so, we could either stand his or her attitude Or... juz screw and burst out .. whichever option that would make one improve instead of being selfish or juz spoilt .. no offence to anyone

short meet ups

2011-07-22T22:49:00.000-07:00

so i went fetchin choonming and val at about 6something. went to jusco, johnny's. they ate dinner n we talk n talk n talk while waiting for michelle, katherine and another guy which i duno how to spell his name. lol.. so we went to jonker after that, and i tell u, being in the same car with CM and VAL can really kill my ears =.= they dont talk, instead they SHOUT ! omg =.= speechless... anyways, reached there n we walked from one end to another n ended up in Bistro, ordering a bucket of carlsberg and well yea drink... played card, sang, talked... wasting time. haha.. went back fetchin them and val went tipsy talking crap behind my car . haha well cm noes what happened and pics are wif michelle so will upload soon :)

love

2011-07-20T06:12:00.000-07:00

what kind of love do u have till today? family love, partner love, friendship love, or even animal love? whether u have watched "My Sister's Keeper" or "Dear John" or even "Marley and Me", the main idea is love..

i might say this, most or everything i do, its for love. ever since i started gymnastics, i thought it was de worse thing tht could happen to anyone and yet i continue for 10 years. and guess wad? i loved it in de end. i did that to make my parents proud. i noe myself, lazy, foolish, love tv.. i'm not study type and yet i still went tuition.. do u even noe how tiring it was for me to go to school at 6.30, end class at 2pm, go straight to gym till 7pm, go home, rush to tuition at 8pm and come home finishing all homeworks that our dearest teachers gave? not for one day or two... for 5days per week. and yet i managed... my results aint that good but i've tried my best. for wad? make my parents proud once more.. ever since i had a dog, i never stop loving it. losing Furly was devastating enough. and now i'm treasuring my current dogs, hoping that i could see them everytime i come back from kl.

my point is, no matter whether if its family, partner or friends, love exist all around us...sometimes love is the reason why we live or move on in life and sometimes that is the reason why we believe in love again... i really think that we should appreciate our love ones and dont ever give up on love..

..

2011-07-19T03:00:00.000-07:00

sometimes people just dont know the real story behind something.. they just assume wad they assumed is the right one and believe it straight away... well, maybe its because one made tht happen..

short outing =)

2011-07-16T06:48:00.001-07:00

me n huixin

me n choonming

soooo, I'm back in malacca ! haha... and today, i went out with these two pretty girlfriends of mine... i went driving at about 10.35, fetched choonming n huixin and headed off to dp... we talk n talk n talk till we ended up at kenny rodgers and we spend lk more than an hour there =)) fetched my sis home and me,cm n hx watched harry potter and the deathly hallows part 1 since i haven watch as well XD so after tht went dinner with my family =)) miss all those moments when friends come together and just talk n talk non stop =D

2011-07-10T04:45:00.000-07:00

we went here for lunch...

this is wad he do while waiting for the food to come XP

on friday after my accounts discussion, went lunch wif wilson, on top.. lol.. err den after tht gt scholarship talk till 2.30 den went studio... at about 4pm i went to my sis's place.. so.. i prepared de ingredients while my sis work and we cooked =) sweet n sour chicken, fried vege wif oyster sauce, white carrot soup... was busy drinking so forget to take pic XP

sweet n sour chicken

fried vege wif oyster sauce

weird much?

2011-07-08T08:05:00.000-07:00

i duno wad i'm feeling and the only thing that i wanna say is i might be mixing my feelings n my thinkings... i'm always confuse.. well wad de heck right? i'm always not good with goodbyes, lk seriously i'm bad at them when i'm facing my close friends... i guess i just want to see u more often and yes, i miss you

Hungry !!!

2011-07-07T02:19:00.000-07:00

lets see... morning i had sandwich for breakfast and den had chicken rice for lunch, currypuff and pohpiah after class... omg man.. i'm still hungry =.= WHY???
my stomach wont get normal =((

food food n food

2011-07-02T00:05:00.000-07:00

so yesterday, friday, i had lunch with wilson at lunchbox since he didnt go before.. lols.. after lunch we went pyramid n saw lil kids competing in ice skating competition... it made me thought of learning =)) somehow.. haha.. so we went to watch transformer 3 ! it was awesome !! =)
then we went back to studio till 6something .. its funny to say this but den i kindda liked talking n crapping wif all of them... wilson, ian, alex, eric although he didnt talk much.. lols..
then i met up wif sis n cousin, went yuen steamboat restaurant.. and eat n eat n eat... ate for more than an hour non-stop man... can pengsan.. actually not tht nice la.. but freakin exp lor.. but de honey bbq chicken was not bad at all..

my name =))

blur case wilson

our food in lunchbox

steamboat

bbq chicken =))

event ...

2011-06-28T06:52:00.000-07:00

Sat, 8pm to Sun 1pm

Dewan Sri Putra in Bkt Jalil

the place we met up with the others for the marathon volunteer event... so we report ourselves to our sections and mine was Section E.. under full marathon which is 42km.. so at about 10something, they played The Little Fockers and the movie ended at about 11something to 12am.. me, li jean n kbc was kindda talking all the way.. den they asked us to go to our sections to gather and wait for time to pass basically..

and we got this bag for us to use during the event and we were given bottle water, 100 plus, breakfast, whistle, disposable raincoat, cap and the balloon stick? lols...

li jean, me, kbc

li jean and me

me =)

So at 2am, each section slowly move in the bus and depart to their stations... me and one guy got placed at T-junction of traffic which i duno wher cz i duno tht place =D lol.. err den we waited till 5am since the race starts at tht time.. so at about 5.45 to 6 i saw the first group running and they were freaking fast and followed by others... while making sure runners run at the correct path.. i saw all these kindda stuff happening
i see some running like they trained for years already, i kindda got the feeling where this is only once now so do ur best lk how i compete in old gymnastics... i seen some smiling at me, some saying Thank You, one wore a big cowboy hat, one wearing tux, one wearing dress and leggings with sport shoe, one already wearing sun glasses although its oni 6am and few guys running while taking pictures with each other... and the oni one that i laughed at is when a guy was running and i was like using those balloon sticks to point out the directions to them, he asked me, " Ehh ur hands not pain ah? " Lol... i wanted to ask, ur legs not pain ahh?
at about 7something we saw the so called last runner cz there was police behind them so we stand down ouselves and rested at the side of the road.. and our leader came to us asking us to go to the bus stop.. we waited for stand down and at 8something we saw a lady walking to us, asking, where m i suppose to go? i got lost... we were like wth.. omg we cant rest becz of her =.= i mean its good tht she continued after she tot of quiting but why continue after over one hour? so nvm, we waited for de bus still, and they came but it was the wrong bus... tht bus was going to the Dataran Merdeka instead of Bkt Jalil.. so half way we all came down from the bus and waited for our ownn bus.. we waited till 11something and went back to bkt jalil.. took our allowance n went back to college... FREAKING TIRING I TELL U =.=

monday, 27/6
malaysian studies was... no comment .. as usual i guess .. den i had language.. at 4.10 i went for Pirates of the Carribean !!! finally man ! after so long... lol.. i was feeling rather tired actually.. so Luckily i didnt slept in the cinema... almost =)
so after the movie i went dinner wif wilson at wong kok

omg look at his finger !!

apple and chocolate

lonely weekend =)

2011-06-19T05:38:00.000-07:00

me and sheryl

last weekend we had cousin's wedding dinner.. full of ppl i tell u.. and dynamix danced ! =D so before the dinner start we cousins gotta help out in some stuff la.. some help at front counter some juz hang around... me, sheryl n sofea gotta help bring de guests in the hall... but the thing is we don even noe where de numberings of the table are.. so kindda avoid ppl at first.. go n try to memorize de numberings n stuff den oni bring ppl in.. there was about 50 tables in the hall

corn soup, fried chicken and fried vege

few days ago, me n shu fang went grocery shopping... and guess how much we spent? haha... RM 120 XD i feel so bad.. but i seldom spend so wth.. hmm... so since we gt too many stuff to carry , we waited for de shuttle bus to come.. went back and start getting ready to cook... i cooked de fried chicken n vege while sf cooked de soup n rice.. well.. it was not bad tasting =)

water water mango watermelon =))

last friday i finally went to watch movie... wanted to watch pirates but den de timing was not right... so instead me and wilson went watching Green Lantern.. the movie was good.. haha.. lols.. so we went lunch n went back to college for rave... the weird thing in rave was tht i m learning snsd mr taxi... i noe to some of u, wth right? wont hurt learning mah XP

spaghetti

maggi noodles with egg, chicken and vege

on saturday i had so called the marathon charity practice but it was actually just briefing... so yea i was at bkt jalil and i juz thought for a sec tht i had not been there for a while... miss all those gym moments tht my friends n i had.. feel kindda free there somehow.. haha.. weird me i guess.. so i went back , clean my room and cooked dinner for me self..
today, sunday.. i woke up at 8something since i cant sleep d.. get changed n went down for a jog.. since i see no one at de badminton court, i went there to practice handstand n stuff lk tht... till i realised tht my left shoulder hurt like crap even if i juz do a handspring.. guess old injuries wont cure 100%... after lunch i went to study room to play sdo =)) haha... lazy me..

horror movie is a no go for me

2011-06-04T01:14:00.000-07:00

so i went to cinema to watch Insidious on wed night.. i went with Shu Fang and Xinni.. well i thought i could watch at since i heard ppl saying tht its lame n funny.. guess what? from the moment i sat there, the moment de movie started, my heart was beating fast already == and not only that, my hands are covering my ears all the time.. hate it when their sounds are so good ... i thought i'm able to watch de movie so yea i thought wrong ... so when i go back to the hostel, it was about ten something... and i asked Shu Fang to teman me for the night since my roommate isnt here. watched glee... so yea kindda trying to forget bout insidious.. luckily i didnt dream of anything that night.. but when i woke up in the morning.. my genius imaginative brain start imagining stuff == even if its in the morning...

this is kindda de first time tht i remembered watching a horror movie till de end... and in cinema .. normally when my sis changed to a channel which is horror movie i'd just watch a while and walk away from the livng room.. ta da ~ i noe, ppl call me coward n stuff.. but i cant deal with it so like that lor..

last week or so i went to midvalley with my sis n her bf n my cousin.. lol... so i bought a new shorts costing rm50 and before i pay, i kept checking the threads n so... my sis was like, are u done? lol... i got rights as users okayy... =)

and whats with people and iphone? is it so influencial?? if some really needs it den i cant say anything la... how bout for those who want to to show off only? sorry if u feel offended or so cz i noe u will have ur own reasons.. firstly my dad said iphone still phone what, no diff... ended up, he bought one for himself.. and after a while my sis start bugging my parents for an ipod touch.. and she got it just like tht.. awesome right? lols... i duno what i'll say to myself if one day i get tht also.. hope i dont unless i really need it..

we walked pass each other a couple of times...

but felt like still duno how to talk like normal

well, hope we'll be okay soon...

patience?

2011-05-28T07:08:00.000-07:00

must i always wait ? or u just dont care? or u act like u care last time oni? i duno why most of the times i would have to tolerate.. no wait, i chose to tolerate.. == fine maybe i'm just mad or something... to ppl i adore and love, i'm sure to tolerate..

anyways, i was having gastric since yesterday... its been quite a while since i had gastric.. so yea kindda weird.. timing not correct i guess.. its kindda frustrating u noe.. when i was having gastric, i got no mood to eat although thats wad im suppose to do.. normally i can finish a regular one meal but now its like, half only... i wanna eat but i feel like i'm full d.. but i just force myself to swallow de food and drink warm water + soya bean..

ooh yeah , i went to the temple today with my sis n her bf.. after prayers we went in to so called get our fortune thingi... and mine was, i gotta work hard == and my love life is something like if suit den only can together.. something like that...

i freaking miss my dogs now... wanna hug dino so much ! haih... got another 2 weeks before i can go back malacca..

i don wan gastric =(

my view

2011-05-25T08:38:00.000-07:00

a lot of ppl seemed to be blocking my view today... m i that short??? or are they that tall??? == nvm nvm... in class mostly, den in cafeteria and even McD ... i just realised it today somehow... odd much? perhaps? blurr... and i got called to answer long answers when i realised the only person teacher cant see is me because someone was blocking our view... for seconds i've been thinking, why me? out of so many ppl ? my answers are not that good and there she was, asking me to continue answering when i was already blanked out.. lol.. well luckily i manage to answer what she wanted to hear.. phew...

so in the evening, me n shu fang wanted to watch pirates of the carribean but it was sold out... like seriously?? == fine den we thought... lets just watch Thor instead.. and that movie isnt bad... it was quite nice though i don really like the climax nearing to de ending.. so after that i went to jusco to get margarine for myself while shu fang helped her sis n me buy pearl milk tea from Chatime.. the pearl was good i tell u.. anyhow when i was going out of jusco, they closed the doors... == so i gotta walk the longer way.. basically thats it or maybe not...

i felt empty... somehow...

no idea how and what...

i can act like i'm normal, or try to be

but the thing is something was blank inside me..

feel like going to de beach n feel relax again

every beginning has an ending

2011-05-20T06:18:00.000-07:00

does it?

well some might say yes, some might say no. there's always friends who just come n go but not forgetting, there are friends who still stick to us though we might be far from them...yes its easy to make new friends but not that easy to make true close friends... friends who can sit with u and listen to ur craps that u pour to them even if its already midnight, friends who laugh and cry with u, friends who give u great advices that would help u instead of tearing u down, friends who support u in everything u do, friends who make u stand back up when u're down on the floor, friends who would slap u right at ur face to wake u up and tell u that its not the end of the world yet...

who goes into ur mind when u're reading all those? thats ur true friend... yes there are fakers everywhere and there are also those hi bye friend.. its normal to have those, it makes the world not so boring right? well perhaps.. we wouldnt like too much drama to happen as well.

its times like this, when u met one or two or even more nice n good friends in life and u just feel like u don wanna say Goodbye to them.. sometimes u just wish that time would stop so that we could continue talking random stuff all day, continue laughing till u cry, continue singing together in the car, continue annoying one another... its all those sweet memories that would bring us together again...

everyone is really going their own way in life from now onwards.. and i really hope everyone remembers all de stupid stuff and not so stupid stuff that we did together that would eventually put a smile on one's face in the end.. and i hope that this is not the end for us all, hoping that we always keep in touch as much as we can though we can be busy with our own stuff... i'm missing u all already, u noe who u are...

i was at the beach today with nisse and jenn ,

and i felt so relax that i only wanted to look at the sea but something striked me,

i realised i wasnt the one giving unreasonable reason, its u,

u cant think straight i guess? pls la wei, u just rebound ,

i mean like come on la daryl? i shouldnt care at all i guess? sigh

ignorance?

2011-05-18T06:33:00.000-07:00

there are times where i think ignoring is better than caring ... cz when u try to care, that someone sometimes don even bother about it... and i'm not talking only about that someone u like but a friend too. lets just say, a friend told u her sad n pity story bout her ex played her n stuff ... n so u pity her and think that she's not in the wrong n stuff.. den she got together with another and after a while they broke up and come telling u another pity story like its not her fault at all... but den when u asked that another person tht she was with, that person tells u another different story.. how would u react? duno who to believe right?

or maybe it would be someone that u like for quite a while.. den u try to show that u care about this person and about what this person is doing , and u think that that person cared too. that person chat with u, texted u before u sleep and maybe called u when u cant sleep or something? den after a while, that person stops doing all that and though u try to tell him that u care indirectly, that person maybe just reply once in a while. so why care? when that person might just want ur attention?

anyways, this week i'm having a holiday.. yes i m. and i'm home, malacca again. well, i didnt go out after the wesak walk on monday... so yea looking forward for tmr's baking session with Nisse n Jenn Yi... and yes it was boredom all de way since i came back... but at least got tv for me to watch XD

happy mother's day

2011-05-08T04:40:00.000-07:00

happy mother's day mom... wishing u from kl...

missing ur cookings at home and yes i will come back next week.. so yes again for healthy food =)

so on friday, after ravelution i waited for my jie to finish her work and guess how long i waited? two hours... lols.. so went to her place n watched clash of the titans for de first time.. haha i noe i'm out but its never too late right? well i didnt like de part towards de end.. it seemed too easy..

so de next day, saturday... me n my sis went to de market to get some chicken and vege n also breakfast .. so we went back and prepare for breakfast since my sis's bf was still piggin... watched karate kid for de third time... it was so cute sial.. den went to gsc in ioi mall and watched Fast n Furious 5... it was AWESOME ! i don mind watching it somemore.. haha.. went back home n quickly prepared to cook for dinner.. there were teratai soup, fried chicken n mix vege.. n we watched vampire diaries... lol.. after dinner... onlined for a while n so... my sis bf asked me, ehh u wan watch I am number 4 a not? i downloaded it already.. i was like Yes Thank you man.. so bored... so we watched together n eventually my sis slept == and ended up me n her bf start talking bout de movie..

so today, woke up at about 9 and made breakfast... and again... i watched movie... Harry Potter ! haha.. kindda forget wads de earlier movies were about ... this weekend is like movie weekend for me... i couldnt remember when i last watched so many movies in a period of time.. lol.. so after that my sis fetched me back to de hostel n i watched de next harry potter movie.. so yea... i guess i'll continue again =P

btw, i didnt lose anyone...
not trying to brag bout myself but,
too bad for u, u lost me

performance??

2011-05-03T03:34:00.001-07:00

me n mich
jax,me,mich

me,mich,daniel

so yeah on sunday my dad fetched me to kl

met up wif my sis n her bf and we had lunch together at Fullhouse ! =)

it was nice n exp... lol..

walk n walk and my dad bought pillows and easychair for himself .. haha

den they all went back and i start unpacking my stuff n clean up my room

had dinner n online... and basically thats it..

monday, went to college to practice for performance

walked n walked and we cant find a place to practice since de student centre was closed.. so we ended up practicing right outside de student centre... how awesome can that be? haha

practiced for more than 2 hours and we went for lunch...

well yea eventually ppl took our place la.. so we went to de balcony to practice... from 3something to 6... damn freaking tired...

so yea i went dinner with jax n help him in his project and we talked n talked till 9pm... =D

i went back to hostel, clean up, rest, online a while.. by 12 i was already sleeping

today, went audi 2 to get the timetable for semester 2 and the timetable was horribleeeeee... ==

my earliest to finish class is 3.15 and lastest at 4.30

sickening i tell u... there are a lot of gaps in between ==

so nvm.. class was immediately on and we went to class... after that me, daniel n mich went to the mph to have "rehearsal"

and i'm telling u this... our performance was only practiced 4 days... peace =P

damn freaking nervous i tell u... seeing so many ppl in de hall

well i almost ruined my part of de performance... de rest was okay i guess... maybe only de end cz i couldnt hear de song ^^

so after that we see other performances ... wah jia ming's voice was so cute ! haha... next bieber? lols... grats to that group =)

special THANK YOU to

~ Jax for choreographing our performance

~ Mich for saying yes when i asked u to perform with me

~ Daniel for putting effort and laughing through our practices =)

never thought i'll say this but...

i'm fine by my own now...

i can take care of myself as always

grateful

2011-04-29T01:20:00.000-07:00

went out wif jan n sha nisse de day before yesterday

i drove to jan's house at about 2 something and den we went to wilson chicken rice shop n talk plus eat.. fetched my sis back n we're on our way to dp again...

fetched sha nisse n watched limitless ... NZT48? lol..

after tht we went for dinner n fetch sha nisse back...

well u can noe what happened in nisse's blog... a night to remember

me n jan are glad to be there for you when ur hands were getting cold and when u shouted at that aunty.. lols.. that wad friends are for right? being there for a friend no matter wad de situation is.. not forgetting, we're this close to bomba and they smoked? ==

no comments... so yea i was driving home alone after that about 12 something midnight..

i was in my lane and this wira suddenly cut through in front of me... and yea sudden break if not i would have bang tht idiotic car ==

it was kindda scary to drive in de middle of de night alone... well switched on de radio loudly and juz pay attention to de road... and use long way to go home... short cuts look scarily dark ..

so i reached home safely and went to bed

to Choon Ming, Michelle, Jocelyn, Husky and everyone who did this, Thank You from de bottom of my heart =)

its kindda shocking u noe.. haha

love de pictures a lot..

so yea i went out wif choon ming, michelle and husky..

watched the roommate and its not that nice la.. for me..

den went to mp arcade n cm and mich start playing wif de motors and cars

walked around for a while den fetch my friends back home..

after dinner i went windmill with cm and we talk talk talk... for almost 2 hours .. *yaiks*

haha went back home n did my usual stuff ^^

anyhow, to this particular person, everything u wrote n every single text message u gave me was a total lie right now.. all your useless idiotic doubts should have been mine... why did i trusted you? answer that yourself kay.. what a disappointment... if u ever did tell ur new partner things that would pity yourself n yes yourself selfish asshole... u definitely don deserve any partner in your life.. cant believe that u would be so selfish or perhaps u just cant stay single huh? just sayin~ ==

random

2011-04-26T07:08:00.000-07:00

so these few days are kindda boring... no wait it is ==

felt like i'm in front of de tv de whole morning to afternoon... i gotta get out... seriously.. lols.. so yea ntg much happened these few days... oh yeah i changed my ic pic and it still suck.. so no comment on that..

today i realised something.. at times in life when one feels down n u tink that it hurts inside or outside or u tink that no one understands how u feel and so, do remember that there's always close friend that u can count on to cheer u up and annoy u like how they do always... they'll understand even more than maybe ur best friend.. i said maybe... cz when u feel u can trust tht person, u'll let everything out and u'll eventually feel better and at de same time get advises from them.. it happened to me.. so to that close friends of mine... Thank You sincerely =)

BACK

2011-04-23T05:43:00.001-07:00

i'm back in malacca !! lols.. home sweet home... never felt so comfortable since so long ago..

so yeah i finished my exam... and accounts was == no comments.. hope my coursework can help me...

after exam i went for lunch wif my close friend and then i head back to college, the power studio... somehow when i'm in there, i felt like i'm myself though i suck la.. who cares anyways... when one's happy, anything is possible..

after dancing i went out to wait for my sis, guess what? rain + thunder + lightning came and some of u guys might noe how i feel... on my way back, i felt so tired in the car though i cant sleep my mind was somewhere else.. perhaps there was u in it... perhaps there wasn't... perhaps my mind is playing wif me.. i dont noe..

one of my annoying friend said, "when u want something, go for it.. cz not all goalkeepers can stop u from letting u score the goal."

yes thats true... for things that u want to achieve... not in love

sometimes we'll just have to let fate decide for us

i'm kindda down from the moment i saw that..

but at the same time, i feel happy for u

one more day

2011-04-21T05:44:00.000-07:00

so yeah yesterday got language and maths exam... i meant... BUSINESS maths..

sucks... language i didnt had enough time to finish my essay so its considered undone... haha... nvm la.. maths was okay... but i got one confirm wrong d... hope not more than 10 wrong can d la.. so i went out half an hour before de time finishes cz checked and de hall was cold... didnt want to stay any longer..

today i had business communication exam... it was okay... not that bad.. noticed a lot of A for multiple choice questions.. lol.. does that meant anything? hmm... weird... some ppl go out damn early lor.. no need mention also noe who d... damn pek chek.. haha

so after exam me, mich n daniel had discussion for accounts since its tomorrow..

hope its not too bad lar... teacher should give us more questions... exam questions for beginners in accounting... =P

i'm going back to malacca tomorrow !!

so Sha Nisse, Choon Ming, Janine, Husky !!

pls let me have date or group date wif u guys kays??

cz i seriously miss u all... =)

i'm not putting my hopes high

but just remember that u're always in mind...

thanks for being close to me once.. appreciate that =)

grrr....

2011-04-19T02:57:00.000-07:00

today is seriously not my day... somehow..
so my class started with maths... business maths... we got back our papers and i got a 30/45
== sucks like shit... wanna noe why? ALL of it WAS CARELESS MISTAKES ! ==
so nvm... its my careless mistake den... NEXT CLASS, accounts... yesterday i took it from teacher and well... it wasnt that bad for a beginner ... i'm happy with that... could have understood de question more though...
had lunch and then another acc class == she should give us see de pass year paper n questions more... rushed to language class and teacher wasn't there... so yeah we talked n talked till she came.. after class i got to noe some news from a friend so yeah... my hopes just flew off...
but i saw him pass me just now ^^ i'm mad.. don mind me.. but den forgetting everything soon d la... since i guess he'll be chasing someone else...
who wouldnt want to see someone he or she likes be happy right? i'll just wait for time to pass and who noes, the someone might appear in my life sooner than i even noe..
for now, its study study study... plus bit dance =P

tired

2011-04-17T08:08:00.000-07:00

i slept at 1something coming to 2am yesterday ... woke up at 8 den couldnt really sleep back... 10 i got out of bed and my mind was kindda blank... felt like my body didnt want to move too much and so... no idea why.. went breakfast and den to pyramid to buy some home stuff... came back to shu fang's room and we chatted a lot since its been a while ...

read moral and bit accounts which i tink ntg much went in.. felt so weird for my phone to not vibrate... lol.. cooked porridge and after talking to shu fang, i felt quite empty... for some reason... felt like u're bit like avoiding me or something.. maybe u just pretend to care... i still duno u... so yeah i'm not thinking much about this anymore.. gonna try my best to concentrate more in exams... felt like i'm so useless to be here but didnt put a 100% effort into my studies...

~well its kindda normal for me to like someone who don't like me.. used to it...

sad

2011-04-16T07:20:00.000-07:00

next week is exam week... haih.. hope i can do well enough lar.. don wanna have too low marks since my coursework marks always pull me down.. hoping the test papers is not too hard... hoping my accounts can do lar..

going back after exam so yeah every close friends of mine in malacca, i cant wait to go outing wif u guys.. i miss u guys so much ! :)

~seriously i thought u got me... or u just ignored wadever that happened? u could right? haih... i duno what to think now.. maybe its just me.. maybe i think too much earlier... maybe i thought wrong... hmm... guess i'm just too naive as usual...

2011-04-12T06:25:00.000-07:00

damn

2011-04-12T06:08:00.000-07:00

well.. i had presentation today and our topic was,

gays n lesbians should be given equal rights

i suck at presentation so yea it was bad..

hoping that my marks wont be so bad..

ooh yea without realizing, me n michelle was like so ngam in our outfit lar..

will post it soon

my sem exam is next week..

and i'm not ready at all.. why time fly so fast???

haih... not to mention on 3rd of may i might have to perform for teacher's day !! ahh... doomed... why me teacher??? esther's performance is good enough ^^

i duno what to feel right now.. its like we're this close yet so far... i thought u got me, guess i just got to wait n see what would happen next...

mixes

2011-04-02T02:45:00.000-07:00

this is just a random pic which is like last year. i didnt know that time really flies, didnt know that 5sc2 gymnastrada was over, didnt know that spm is over, didnt know that i would be here in sunway studying foundation in arts. everything was arranged nicely. met more friends, nice ones and not so nice ones. everything changed, most of it. i changed for the better. i tried talking more or speaking out more. start saving more money, start having more beer that i ever drank in my life, start wearing clothes that i don really expect myself to wear...

i was afraid to speak out, afraid to be wrong, afraid that people would laugh at me, afraid to share my story, for some reason, some ppl might hate me, i'm trying to keep myself busy, forgetting stuff that are not important...

i'm not smart nor stupid, maybe i'm just confused? i dont even know what things to be confused.. damn..

delicious duck rice

while in class...

in the room... in my sis's apartment...

sigh

2011-03-30T04:59:00.000-07:00

i didnt noe everything that i have done was a total waste

now, when i think back...

all ur useless doubts should have been mine

nick's party

2011-03-27T01:08:00.001-07:00

so this is wad happened yesterday...

i did my normal stuff as time flies..

wasnt feeling very well as i m still lil sick.

at about 4pm, i wasnt feeling too well so i start reading my novel for the book review. as i read a few chapters, i fell asleep. at 5pm i suddenly woke up, looked at my watch and texted my friend, michelle to ask her wad time she is coming to pick me up. she replied, i m coming now and will reach in 10-15 mins time. at the moment i saw that message i straightaway get changed and ready to go down... as i reached de foyer, just sat down , michelle caled, i m here already.

luckily i was on time.. went to nick's house and gav him his present that i shared wif michlle. so while waiting for jax to come , i looked at some of our moral slides and realised it was plain so its a good thing that lishan was changing it again.

so yes, we talked a lot... me, mich and jax... talked and laughed till my stomach hurts. thanks jax.. lol.. err nick asked me to drink wif him so yea i m thinking, wads wrong if i drink a lil...

nick n his friends can really drink.. i salute them.. haha...

nick's face is bloody pink...

nick's friends were playing arm wrestling

jax n nick's friend had a dance off and it was fun to watch

so i drank another can while playing big 2 with them..

that was de first time i won so many times .. haha... my luck on that day..

ntg much la , just reached hostel and suddenly blackout ==

after half an hour de lights came back.. so it wasnt too bad...

thanks to those who texted me while i m feeling alone n craps..

so when i woke up today... my sore throat was gone. how awesome is that? having it for de past few days and it is gone now.. =)

and, Happy early Birthday Nick ! =)

oh yeah, i seriously thought i could trust u,

so thanks for teaching me a lesson.

i shall never talk to u nor see u again

i hate u

2011-03-25T22:12:00.000-07:00

its already coming to de fourth month of this year and i thought i was over all those stuff tht made me feel like i was too stupid to think twice...

yes i was... n i thought i could trust that very person whom i was close to since form 4...

just pass these few weeks, i got to noe that , that person never trusted me at all..

ok nvm... now, i cant trust that person anymore..

but wad de heck? why shoould i take note about wad that person is doing? i m already at college and there's ntg much that he or she could do to me.

hmm... now i noe i cant trust ppl easily even though i m close to that person unless i said, i trust u.

eek

2011-03-15T03:22:00.000-07:00

you know.. its kindda weird for me to say this but i think i like it here.. i might be lonely at times but yea life here isnt too bad after all.. i'm trying to save money now.. so i hope my dad don keep putting money to my acc...

saturday morning i was squeezing wif my sis in a small bed... so i didnt really get comfortable sleep on weekends.. afternoon we cooked spaghetti with not much ingredients because sis do not hav much.. lol.. went ioi mall played bowling and my score wasn't too bad... 130.. maybe its because its Ampang Superbowl which is similar to malacca's mp bowling centre... then nothing much la.. went pyramid with a friend for a while and came back doin my usual stuff..

i woke up at 8.15 on sunday and walked to sunway hotel resort to pass a bag to my dad.. walking alone is so boring and it feels like its a long way to reach the destination. when i passed it to my dad, he gave me a box of good chocolates ! haha its actually from his boss birthday celebration .. so i walked back alone again n went upstairs to put de chocolates... then i met up with my friends which is kind of embarrassing because i was not sure where the basketball court was == then as i watched them play, i read my james bond book.. the weather wasn't hot nor cold.. we went to the foyer as there was the open day for sunway and waited for our friends that volunteered in helping it. as we wait, more people came and my friend and i got hungry... we couldn't wait so we walked to pyramid for McDonald's.. i watched "i am number 4" after lunch and it was awesome.. it was then 4pm and i went back to my hostel and clean up my room like what i did every week..

monday classes was as usual...

so today, tuesday , we had 2 quiz which is accounts and business communication. unexpectedly, it was all theory for accounts... and business communication was not very simple... my english is not good.. seriously..

i was texting my younger sister, sheryl and i realised that it was kind of weird for me to text her since she was always beside me at home.. even if we text while we're out also it was just telling one to meet when and where... its kind of funny for me to text her... haha..

and yeah, i m going back this weekend , looking forward to it.. i miss my dogs so much... hope my dad wont scold me when i reach home and start hugging Dino.. haha...

i am trying to not use all the short messaging words

already since one of my friend *u know who u are*

was telling me about how it will affect my essays

2011-02-14T08:15:00.000-08:00

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haih

2011-02-11T04:50:00.000-08:00

time flies... seriously...

last time i wished training time would move faster and then i quit after tht...

old times is where i wish school class goes faster but soon spm was over...

and its holidays , i thought time would move slow again as i can rest n hang out n watch my tv... but never do i realise, i'm already in college... freakin fast.. its February somemore

passed my bday somemore...

anyways, there's this club in sch tht nt oni teaches dance but hav workshop for acting + singin

goodness... i'm interested in one but nt all...

should i join? perhaps giving it a try wont hurt... it wouldnt be too bad i guess

well life here isnt as bad as it could be... most also being lonely for a few days

happy cny !

2011-02-03T04:25:00.000-08:00

happy cny everyone

or hapi getting angpau day?

lol... so here's wads on my mind these few days

sometimes ppl tink tht they're unlucky when they see other richies getting a tone of cash..

but wad they didnt realise is tht they're actually lucky... in fact very lucky

unlike some of us, some have to work right after siting for spm, some wanna work, some were not allowed, some rott at home wif de tv n computers, some hanging out everytime, some start thinkin "spm is finally over" but wad they didnt have in mind was no more high sch but more confusions and hard work coming in life...

i heard abt a woman's life,

her husband loves gambling and not paying de debts

she has to pay them for him... not to mention she has 3 children, one same age as me and another two is younger.. her husband do nothing but sleep n gamble, whle she gotta work from 7am to 4pm and then from tht time to i duno wad time... but 2 works in a day... and after work she goes back home n cook for de family...

and now tht her oldest daughter had finished spm, tht girl start working straight after tht..

she supports her family... i duno how she do it...

i watched her work in a coffee shop and i respect her... really...

sunway...

2011-01-11T05:19:00.000-08:00

today is a new day

its second day of orientation

we had our briefings in subjects and library tour...

de library is huge i tell u...

had some new friends from few places in malaysia

i'm doing FIA which don really consist of too many ppl but there r some international students..

everything is nt as bad as it seems..

though... i do miss all my home friends...

choon ming, mich, sha nisse, jenn yi, val, mushroom, janine, my doggies !!!!!

hoping to meet u guys soon ooh...

u noe, i actually tink tht i'm missing my mom's yellings.. hahaha

sorry if i'm lying to u bout some stuff.. surely i don wanna giv u false hope like some ppl do.. u're making me worry a lot but now i cant even do anything bout it since u don giv a damn.. i hope u do take care of urself instad of hurting urself... but den for now i m juz blank.. i need a direction...

haih

2011-01-03T18:12:00.000-08:00

everythings gonna change... i wonder wad would happen soon.. sometimes i wish i'm still in secondary school.. i noe time will oni move in front... cant turn back time rite.. hoping tht u all will take care n not lose our friendship or "relationships" (aunty, datuk, ama..ect) i love u.. for wadever tht i've done wrong or soon to do or made u upset i'm sorry.. reli m.. sometimes its not wad we want but we'll juz do it for de best of both parties or more.. some ppl can be so selfish , some can be ignorant, anooying, caring, loving.. all diff characteristics but thts human rite?

*wishing u all de best in ur future n don forget me*

=(

2010-12-29T05:29:00.000-08:00

i'm feeling so down..
ppl i love are getting away from me
soon i'll be goin kl and all our relationship maybe might nt work out as we planned..
hmm...
wad can i do?
i'm missing u all...
all de fun n sad n happy times we had...
gym friends, sch friends, good friends n best friends..
thanks for everything tht u've shared wif me...

arghh !!

2010-12-22T05:21:00.000-08:00

look at its face !!

cute rite? do they look harmful? nope

mother n daughter dogs..

adorable?

look at their cute cubby face

i hate dog catchers !!

juz look at them... they got cought bcz of some idiots aound my housing area.. how awuful is tht?

my family had been feeding them for more than a month...

now where r they? probably in heaven...

haih... puppies... i miss u...

now juz left their mother here..

can u imagine a mother losing her 4 children ?

has she gone mad? yes she did... she ran from one end to another wif a scary face... but i admire her a lot... when her puppies were around... she let her puppies eat till they're having fat paws n cubby cheeks but she didnt eat... when i feed her n her puppies go near her, she gave it to them .. n now she's lonely behind my house... i'm sure she's wondering where her puppies are...

they're harmless... why would ppl be so cruel?

the dogs are harmless too... they juz wanna live...

no chance at all?

i hate u, dog catcher.

i hate u, human who called dog catcher.

end of the year

2010-12-10T05:08:00.000-08:00

at first when i enter 5sc2 this year,

i wasn't sure if i would fit in like i did in sc3 last year...

so i have this ppl around me...

janine beside me, loves steroids and annoying me

sha-nisse behind me, loves singin and not doing moral work

jenn yi n brenda behind me, loves talking bout snsd, tiffany, yuri, jessica etc

sam n aileen in front, wif their pikupiku...

lu ee too anooying...

kaysha too smart...

choon ming beside me, i love annoying her

may zee so guai lui...

mei yong so smart plus nice

yi rou which nisse say she look like hx? lol...

anyways, after a while i realised tht it wasn't tht bad...

had all de nerves during exams n our modern dance...

some got their driving licence damn early...

had hard time following moral class but in de end... spm time all is definisi

i had fun skipping some classes which jan will noe..

had a scared feeling when we threw paper plane out of de window and den ran downstairs to pick it up...

had fun listening to balloons burst one-by-one till mr tan came n scold us

had seen true colours of not only friends but also respected teachers

how selfish some would be... how they push their responsibilities to others... how they've been rude to us... how we r forced to do things tht we hate... how some ppl ignored us...

but... this is life n people... we cant change everyone

but some elderly are not having much difference comparing to us too

soon we'll be going our separate ways and we might juz stare at de wall n remember all de stuff we've done during our schooling days...

i'll miss u guys so much... i do hope tht we'll keep in touch

confusions...

2010-10-02T20:18:00.000-07:00

wooshh... trials is over
so ... spm is coming...
juz hoping tht my result got no fail la.
lols...

at some point,
i dun understand why some ppl can juz be so selfish
i mean like its not wrong but dont be too much..
like some ppl who never even tell us whether she or he will be present or absent for some event.. or some ppl who juz burn their rubbish in front or back of de house? or smoke when there's ppl around u.. living things like human or our pets do not want to inhale all those harmful gases.. if u wanna die? dont drag others.. thats cruel..

treat ppl close to u as nice as it can be..
wif family... friends... or partners
tolerate as much as u can
but when u cant... find a true friend and let it out..
it works... they r de ones who will help u n bring u up again
some friends dont even wanna noe or they juz ignore wad u said but pretend to listen
but trust urself every single moment

bian

2010-09-06T00:06:00.000-07:00

everything seems to be my fault
perhaps it is...
now ppl who duno de real story would probably hate me and wont even think i exist anymore.. will buat bodo when walk pass me... hmm...
i wonder... all this ppl are juz frien wif u when they wan n when they dont wan, they juz listen to one party...
rumours... i mean... FAke rumours... ooh i hate tht so much..
if u duno wads de real thing, pls ... juz ask for de truth or zip it !
its frustrating to hear rubbish around u

ahh... study study study...
damn myself for being lazy
i need to wake up

next year how?
where m i suppose to go?
wad m i suppose to study?
wad r my interest?
can i handle de pressure?
can i stick to a field?
arghhh

omg.. seriously
some teachers r juz annoyinggggg
not oni tht... they suppose to show good act but noooo... they pretend oni
=.=

at times... i wish i'm still a small girl...
somehow, one muz grow up...

lebih much?

2010-08-10T21:11:00.000-07:00

hmm...
u look like a teacher with good behaviour
perhaps i was wrong...
haha... tht time 317 u ask ppl to behave but u urself r de same,
if u haven realised?
seriously lol man...
ask ppl to sit properly, behave properly, bla bla bla
den in staff room i saw u siting worseee than how we sit...
please la...
dont judge and tell ppl wad to do when u urself r not able to do it ok?
now isnt tht embarrassing? if u tink its u, sorry den.

erm... lamos?

2010-08-10T20:41:00.000-07:00

for some reason,
i juz cant understand why some ppl could juz gossip about another friend of hers and acted like she didnt in front of tht friend. u don feel any guilt? u could go infront of her and juz talked normally. are ur friendship fake? somethings r not to be spoken? after some problems came along, u stop taking to each other n gossip more bout them... n after a while, u could talk to her like nothings happened? wow... brilliant isnt it?
And to ppl who like spreading rumours bout others, please la, u're juz making things worse for urself man. so freaking free? ntg else to do? perhaps u could juz mind ur own bussiness.

OH ya and to some ppl who tinks students r respecting u? u r freaking wrong. seriously, when u first come in this sch, u may look nice n stuff but soon u show ur true self... shouting at us like we're deaf and dump? askin us to contribute to de sch n join all de wasting time activities but u aint showing to us tht we should respect u? u dont apologies when u have to? u black mail students? wow... such smart thing to do? cz u're waiting for parents call u, den u say okay i will do something bout it. but no, u make ppl forget bout it so tht u don hav to apologies to ppl who are younger than u. oh ya... shouting at us when u can speak properly? clipping on curtain on de window is wrong? try sitting at our places for juz 30 mins? u sit in air con room which cause environmental prob so of cz u duno how we feel.
and u ask another teacher to sew de curtain? to save cost? ouu icic... noe de patern n colour is so not suitable for study classes? its still glaring noe... wan us to get good results but treating us like crap? puhlease la...

randomness

2010-08-06T20:14:00.000-07:00

life can be unfair...

Cooking a meal takes one hour,
but eating it takes five mins.
Constructing a building takes six months,
but blwing it up only takes 30 seconds.
Earning 10000 takes 30 days,
but paying de cashier 8000 for a productonly takes 2 seconds.
However, its pretty amazing that a one-second kiss on de cheek can make ur day,
a five-second glimpse on ur face can make ur week
and a 10-second hug can take away ur one year of pain.

its complicated

2010-07-24T06:19:00.000-07:00

there's happy moments, sad moments,
when we juz look around,
many hav not realised but life is beautiful,
full of challenges, ups and downs,
chances given by god to make us get back up again ,
hoping that when we're up being humble and not selfish.

at times, i just dont understand why ppl could be so cruel.
how could one ram a dog wif a car and not stop to check on it??
not a big dog, juz a 4/5 kg dog.
u continued driving though u knew my dog was screaming in pain??
wtf is this?
i noe a dog is not human but its still an animal, a living thing, they're to be loved.
some man are so cruel... i juz cant understand why?
wads de reason???

jaaa...

2010-07-21T06:12:00.000-07:00

ok where do i start...?
firstly...
mid year is done n gone
UP3 is up next n den trials
i'm so dead...
anyways , pressure's gettin up but i'm still nt waking up from my dreams
thinking of all my old times
in gym, hols, sch
miss all my friends
now , its juz this crazy class (5sc2)
making me goin nuts also...
Nisse n Jenn(SNSD) behind me, Jan wif her steroids, aileen wif the piku2,lu ee wif her crazy laughs, and more... at first i thought coming in this class would make me uncomfortable or something like tht? but no its not.
it turned out to be nice.. ppl in this class r juz funny and friendly
there's the sleeping club, laughing club, do hw club, and also sarcastic club (when pn yong's around)
this year last year ad lor.. i'm sure to be missing all those moments with all my friends
wonder how its like to not go sch and be childish like now?
wonder how its like havin opportunity to laugh till we hav tears
having drinking water contests in class, betting in class...
wonder how its like to not go crazy anymore...
wish time would pass slowly now
well of course not for some subjects... ^^
live on~

jaa...

2010-07-21T06:00:00.001-07:00

...

2010-07-02T21:04:00.000-07:00

8/10 people said they will never eat McDonalds again after seeing the truth about their food ->

http://FastFoodVideo.com

how can they do this legally?

sukma ?

2010-05-30T04:42:00.000-07:00

walao... sukma next week
and i got one more week for training?
2 weeeks of training... wad can i do?
now muscles all pain like crazy...
i really hate de 3 bunga beracun
really3 hate them
they think they noe everything but they dont !

i sit facing outside also cannot? wad is ur darn prob?
ppl tired ,, need air cz juz finish routine
den u at there say, y u facing ur back to de coach?
cannot kena scold from coach?
eh wtf? de coach didnt scold ok???
u come cari pasal for wd?
go teach ur gymrama fella la. they need u more than bloody hell than me.
ppl tired wan rest also u come disturb ppl
then simply scold hx n azian tht they didnt talk to me?
hello?? we're like 9 years of friends d??
i'm siting at one end of the floor n they at another end.
how u suppose us to talk? loudspeaker?
use ur brain la. si beh kepo sial.

another one... take wadever vitamins or drug from u d den u come n yack in our ears
bng bracun : "u all ah must serious training d, de coach wanna help u etc"
"celine u hav to train also . u don say tht u're reserve den don need train"
me : i never say tht also ! i got train wad .. since when i never train?
bng bracun: den u don talk so much when training la. do separately la
me: de coach wan us to train together ok.
bng bracun : yala den don talk la. train properly la.
me : ppl muscles all so pain wad can i do rite? *walking away* dont simply accuse ppl la !
bng bracun : i don hav time to do motivation d ah
me : motivate ur darn self la f*ker

y muz u simply accuse ppl le? i got train ok?
u never see me train also
u everyday "busy"
busy wif wad? collecting money?
oh i understand man
money face much
try puttin urself into my position?? my body??
or better not la .. ltr my body willl end up in de hospital
u dont understand my situation. u think i'm robot ah?
bullshit man...

mummy's day

2010-05-14T23:32:00.000-07:00

celebrated mummy's day last week at the king's hotel
dinner la... thailand food... pics are down there...
one week of exam is over... left few more ...
everyone jia u oh

2010-05-14T23:03:00.000-07:00

cha...

2010-05-07T00:16:00.001-07:00

my blog's gone dead... haha
vely sien la this month
exam next week start till 3 june le... like? wtf?
this whole week sick somemore
sien...
no study la can die man
juz hav to pray tht i dun fail...
ooh ya i passed my driving test after 2nd attempt
so stupid man can fail parkin... =.=
hmm wad else?
ntg d lor... hav to think of where to celebrate mummy's day
yay... lols ^^

boredom again

2010-03-27T21:42:00.000-07:00

hello... i'm feeling bored again. lols
hws all didnt do
anyways first test results not bad la
cz didnt study mar
btw i failed bio...
=.=
regrat takin bio
should hav went for acc better
maybe la
haha nvm la... juz study harder
sports day is comin but i vely lazy la
feel like dun wan go but hav to

mssm 2010

2010-03-19T23:14:00.000-07:00

azizan n me

chao wei, me, jeremy, terence

me n serita

wah so long didnt blog d... malas

haha...
anyways this week got mssm in malacca
de damn gym so hot sia... wanna use it for SUKMA?? crazy meh... so small
unless put air con lor... still can tahan... hmm
hate some teachers who are so lebih
eg :
cikgu: semua org mesti tinggal d asrama. ade ape2 masalah? perempuan?
me: cikgu, kita perempuan tak mau tinggal sana
cikgu: knape? sana ade air con
me : rumah i pun ade air con
cikgu : sana ade double air con
me : rumah i masuk je dah ade air con
cikgu : =.= den dah beritau en razak?
me : awal2 dah beritau
den can continue talk nonsense somemore
swt man
den another eg :
en razak : nah baju kamu... ini utk yg dapat emas
us : cikgu knape size L? bagilah M
en razak : M dah habis.. tinggal L je
us : o... den ing yueh dgn seeteng tak dpt ah?
en razak : oh... skejap... nah
*we see... size M?*
us : cikgu kate tak de M?
en razak : dah tak de... u org tak mau pakai bagi bapa u org la
like?? wtf? gt M juz giv us la
giv de L my dad also cannot wear la babi...
got brain but dun wan use... selfish

anyways... we got gold medal for team again
n yesterday we went outing wif some penang pplfun fair

me, jeremy, huixin, seeteng, chaowei,tracie
chao wei, me, jeremy, huixin, terence, tracie

CNY + VALENTINE

2010-02-16T06:37:00.000-08:00

hey everyone ...

i'm late i noe
haha...
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR n HAPPY VALENTINES ya

first day
went to collect ang pau(s)
hehe
from dad and mom's side
not much this year though
anyways we dun hav much spirit for cny la
so it doesnt matter
at nite...
waited for cousins to arrive
played wif puppy joy and doggie dino
haha...
when they came, we start gamling
for fun ni la...
haha at first i wasnt havin any luck
first to win is my lil cousin, kelly
last to win is me. ^^
but somehow... someone won almost 10 bucks
ish... so much
and den...
we start diggin out our old fire crackers since there's some left from last year
played till midnight and went to bed
*happy birthday uncle leo*

second day
afternoon...
met janine and
went to siew huay's house
waited for Choon Ming for quite a while
and finally tht sleeping beauty arrives
chit chatted and went cm's house
wanted to play cards but she duno where it is
came my house and play cards
den... choon ming said
"eh celine arh... i wanna bring ur puppy out to the field !!!"
me: " no field... very dirty"
CM: " yerr... can la can la"
janine : wa cm , u like suka de field oni?
yap : ah yala cm mmg everytime field field oni she like
hehe... in de end we didnt go field la but we walk the dogs
ltr on, they went back home
skip skip skip
nite... waited for justin to fetch us
went fun fair wif about 10 of us all together
2 guys and 8 girls
=)
played cars and the spinning thing
thanks to sheryl my ear hurts
she was screaming in my ears... ish
den we played de lil games , the one which we throw rings into the bottle
and guess wad? i was lucky
haha
got a bear while marilyn got a tiger
not forgettin... sofea got spongebob
den about 1020 we went dreambox
on the way there... from lucky become nt so lucky
my nose bleed...
swt
anyways... we sang from 11 till 3am
some were sleepin in the room
haha
after tht went mamak stall at bkt baru
chit chatted till about 5am...
reached home and terus slept
haha... tired

our dolls
me n marilyn...

third day
woke up at 11 like dat den clean up n stuff
ate and went val's hse
chit chatted and watched movie
^^
went home nt long after tht and watched movie again
haha
ntg much la actually

woot !! FLOWERS

2010-02-12T07:08:00.000-08:00

today started off normally... usual fridays

where we got chemistry and bm...
during Bm... teacher went out for something and sam came in the class wif a bouquet of flowers...
i tot its hers... some dedication?
i cant really recall the conversation... wrong dun scold ar...
sam : celine... this is urs...

everyone in class : woooo...

me : huh?? *stunned*
some in class : who send wan?
sam : florist send wan. he ask whether i noe this gal name in the card or not den i told him its my frien in my class...
den marilyn came n said : wah from who arh? i also wan la
she read the card out loud =.=
paiseh sia...
i gt ntg to say...
anyways... to that particular person who sent it...
thank you for the flowers !!! its so sweet ! haha

real roses !
nice ma? hehe

first time ... ^^

=)

bday bday

2010-02-07T05:22:00.000-08:00

woot ! its my bday ! yay...
but... its a boring day...
really...
but anyways... to everyone in facebook i wanna thank u all for the wishes
=)
morning went tuition...
afternoon got stuck wif hw and watched some grammys
nite continue hw
boring i tell u... not to say i was havin headache
hmm...
yesterday nite went new jj
and its okay la... still cant beat kl
haha... for me la...
homeworks berlambak sia
barely able to even revise
exam comin somemore...
no wait...
CNY first. haha...
actually i no mood for celebrations de but since its holidays den ok lar..
^^
i wanna Thank my...
daddy and mummy for the ang pau
and piggy for wishing me while one of ur eye is still close.. haha
but den jie ! u so bad ! ish...

2010-01-30T05:45:00.000-08:00

wa... school got darn much homeworks man
dun even hav time to juz rest properly or revise bit?
haih...
so busy somemore
luckily i'm out of gym.. if not i'll be robot d lu
haha
anyways... i cut my hair short again

wendy who?

2010-01-17T04:10:00.000-08:00

5th july 2008
title:A GRIL MAYBE U NOE-FORM 3 FROM IJC
Hey, just to tell u ALL bout a gal.dis gal sux...she like to act innocent and sweet..but, she had stole ppl bf...TWICE!!!! and she likes to find a bf...(first god bro first, then bf..then make fun of them, kiss them and bla bla bla then dump them!!!!
and she's a backstabber, lying bitch!!!!...if u have her as ur fren..delete her...and sent super bad comments to her!!! and BAD pics comments too!!!!

she suCK...
DIS is the add to her profile!

http://profiles.friendster.com/38873056

SPREAD THIS NEWS!!!

title:a gal u surely know wan66
dont believe the gal, celine goh from ijc, 3k!
she sux..steal ppl bf twice somemore can act innocent oo.
call her sis and her bloody fren do the dirty job(u noe la lana!) but she sit thr act sweet!
Go to hell!dun act innocent by posting whos wendy tan??i noe ur angry. lebey!act show.
and to sheryl, i noe u r charmaine OO!!SO...HAHAHA
AND TO CELINE'S STOLEN BOYFREN,U DUN KNOW CELINE LA..WHEN U NOE HER TRUE COLOUR D...DUN COME HERE AND CRY!
and to her primary skol fren and her best fren now, u all donno her.only i do!.she like to act innocent in front of gals,
in front of boys,smile so damn innocent. and act too!
all the guys tat believe her, u r been fooled!better stay away from her.
and to the girls, be careful! she will steal ur bf!
u all r been fooled!i too.last time.now i realize it!
her bf now is koh kheng guan.( but she still wanna act sweet and say she no bf.if u r not acting sweet, tell ur gals fren all la.lebeh!)
her best fren, choonming,xin,serita and tina. u all been folled!
forward dis!

title:u know her.celine goh!!! ^^
dont believe the gal, celine goh(her url is- http://profiles.friendster.com/38873056 from ijc, 3k!
she sux..steal ppl bf twice somemore can act innocent oo.
call her sis and her bloody fren do the dirty job(u noe la lana!) but she sit thr act sweet!
Go to hell!dun act innocent by posting whos wendy tan??i noe ur angry. lebey!act show.
and to sheryl, i noe u r charmaine OO!!SO...HAHAHA
AND TO CELINE'S STOLEN BOYFREN,U DUN KNOW CELINE LA..WHEN U NOE HER TRUE COLOUR D...DUN COME HERE AND CRY!
and to her primary skol fren and her best fren now, u all donno her.only i do!.she like to act innocent in front of gals,
in front of boys,smile so damn innocent. and act too!
all the guys tat believe her, u r been fooled!better stay away from her.
and to the girls, be careful! she will steal ur bf!
u all r been fooled!i too.last time.now i realize it!
her bf now is koh kheng guan.( but she still wanna act sweet and say she no bf.if u r not acting sweet, tell ur gals fren all la.lebeh!)
her best fren, choonming,xin,serita and tina. u all been folled!

latest...
Celine goh! how dare u bitch? U know wat u do lar.. Dun act lik u dunno me..and tell ur frens all u dunno me and u didnt steal ppl boyfren...kononnya god sis...god sis then be gf rite?tats ur taktik rite bastard? U go to hell...U r fooling everyone...u tink u can...yeah, u can...except me! and to her frens and all, i didnt force u to believe me, juz 2 tell u whos the real fucking bitch celine goh bastard child...
And..dont go around..'i dunno whos wendy tan and blahhhh bla bla..thanks 4 believing me..reli nice to hav u all as fren'..pls la ...pls la...get a life!!!!! and koh kheng guan, choonming, xin, serita, tina...u all r so stupid!
do not believe her!

her url is- http://profiles.friendster.com/38873056

spread da news!!! forward to everyone!

so wendy i suppose ?
are u tired of posting ?
still hate me? no more wif him d u no more spreading crap about me? haha... means truely u like him la? omg... can say me somemore?
i hav to admit.. i was stupid for reading all those posts up there n reply u tht u didnt approve...
and till now u dont dare to admit who r u?
no real adentity i tink or juz fakin around since u r jealous ?
dare to talk crap but dun dare to admit? childish la u
cz hor i really wanna noe who r u la...
tak sangka u noe me "so well" tht me myself duno me
till now ... i wont forget this things .. n i will never
all those vulgar words rite?
i never hear or read ppl say so much in one go be4 le...
geng man u...
normally ppl say one word one word ni de...
hmm...i didnt noe i'm a bitch bcz hor i'm actually juz human wif no super powers to transform into a female dog...
anyways if u read this rite? sOrry LA...
well i apologized at least...
i will always wait for u to continue writing wd u wan abt me
haha
and by the way, i noe i got the best dad i will ever have
he gives me good living place and good food everyday
he giv me good education and lots of love
seriously...
dad, i love u
thanks for everythin ! =)

school...

2010-01-17T00:54:00.000-08:00

first n second week??
we oni get extra homeworks everyday
not forgetting...
on wednesdays we cant even go out of school to buy lunch ?!
hav to eat yucky canteen food?
morning eat d den noon also eat?
no way... geli d...
so sickening...
tests are coming...
8-12 feb
coming to cny
n its all form 4 stuff... gosh
haih
not yet start any revision also
not to say... next saturday got school somemore
haiz

anyways yesterday went to aunty fatso for dinner
n guess wad? there r these tiny lil insects all flyin into out plates !
freakin geli sia...
somemore one went behind my shirt n bit me... gosh
wan eat also no mood d
n de food aren't cheap ... rm 96?
stupid insects spoilt our mood to eat

guess wad??

2010-01-09T06:19:00.000-08:00

i went to gym ... yeah i did
but somehow betty told me tht there is a selection end of feb
i felt very sore to hear tht actually...
as u can see... all of them are nationals n train almost 5 hours a day for 6 days a week!
and me? i'm just 3 hours n 3 or 4 days a week
not to say i've ad quit for some time
there r 7 of us n i noe i will not be selected
and de coach said tht mayb there will not be any team also...
besides... got koku also right? who wanna fetch me to gym if my younger sister stayin back? walk? can... but it'll take half an hour n plus de bags? 45 mins?
everyday i hav to rush
after sch, gym, den tuition...
so... i told my dad abt it and ask him whether i could quit
he said... "quit la... spm this year le... somemore wan training half year"
"if got team also u get one medal oni la as usual, wan masuk final also susah... continue for wad?"
it was nice to hear tht first time from him
haha...
oh well... i really hope i dont turn back again...
mayb i'll go for mssm la... if this year got la...

friday, 8/1
bla bla bla
after sch went home n slept... =)
den went for bm n chem tuition
when chem tuition about mayb 8pm,
the electricity went off i think de whole bukit beruang
haha... was shocked cz teacher was teachin mar...
one by one start to on their phone includin me of coz... haha
teacher asked us to go downstairs n used candle light
he was explaining the factors n i cant really concentrate at all
about 830 he stop explainin n call us to go home...
so i called my mom n went home..
when i reached home, the lights are back ! haha... lucky me
ntg much la... clarice came as usual
watched tv n slept early... was tired ^^